Alone for Always
Do you know what it’s like to constantly sabotage your own happiness with incessant worry?
I do.
Do you know know what it’s like to constantly wonder what in the world there is to love about you?
I do.
Do you know how it feels to be so afraid to love someone you’ve given your trust?
I do.
Every word
Every moment
Clouded with doubt and uncertainty
Filled with questions
Silent and unspoken
Paralyzed by potential
What you don’t know can’t hurt you
Like unrequited love
You are a failure
Crippled with fear
Scared you’ll say the wrong thing
And push them away
There is no doubt
There is no mistake
You are filled with desperation
Begging to be loved
Wishing you could show
More than just this facade
Pathetic
The way you throw away your soul
To ease the loneliness
The way you put in so much
For an opportunity that will never be more than a maybe
You’re only an option
Until something better comes along
You’ve never been a priority
So why would that change now?
You’re not special or wonderful
In any sort of way
You are human
Flawed in every sense
So why do you keep putting others first
When they can’t even do the same?
Why
How
Do you not learn from your past pain?
Don’t you know by now
You’re just not good enough for anyone
A momentary distraction
Is all you’ll ever be
So why?
Why do you remain so naive?
Why do you keep giving so much
When you have nothing left inside?
Because I know what it’s like to hurt
To be burned
And to be without
To be the one broken by trauma
To lose everything I held dear
But everyone deserves to smile
No matter how brief, fleeting, or short-lived
Everyone deserves to know what it feels to truly be loved
And to experience true happiness
The world may be cruel and cold
But that doesn’t mean I have to be
If I can make one person smile
If I can make one person laugh
If I can give joy to those around me
Then I’ve done what I was made to do
Because no matter the pain
No matter the cost
I will always love
With all my heart
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