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Threatened

Every glance
Every smile
Every gilded touch

Every moment
Every whisper
She steals away from you

Beside her
I feel
Inadequate
Small
Weak

A face that could launch a thousand ships
A smile that could start a war

She has it all
And I?
I have nothing
I am no one

You promise me
You love me
Always
And forever

But how
When human nature
Is so fickle
Can you promise such grandeur?

What does it feel like
To trust someone so completely
To give in
To surrender all defences
To believe

Too long have I known
The transient nature of love

I will never be good enough
I never have been

Like smoke
Flitting through my fingers
You are gone
Like so many before you
And I am alone again
Just as it’s always been

Empty promises
And fruitless dreams

You’re just another liar
Whom I’ve let in

Break down my defences
Enter through the gates
Trick me into trust
And wreak havoc on my heart

How I never learn
Is truly beyond me

One day I truly hope
I’ll learn to love myself

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Pages

As I go on and write
Another chapter
Flip another page
I find cowriters
And lose them too

What once began in leisure
Quickly spiralled out of control
Fire and brimstone
A wagon hurling
Unmanned
Down an ice covered hill
Into the depths of hell

How quickly the flow of life changes
Ebbing and flowing
Bringing with it
New adventures

As each chapter ends
As each page turns
We learn to live the life we have been given

Learn and adapt
Fight and fly

This is the gift
Given to humankind

You can count on me

The lightest touch
Tips me over

Falling endlessly
Like Alice
Down the Rabbit Hole

For too long
I’ve drawn out
The strands of my soul
What made me me is now long gone

I look in the mirror
And all I see is sadness
Exhaustion
A husk
A shadow
A sliver of who I once was

Where is that girl
Who used to smile so easily
Now lives the girl
Who hides behind forced delight

I will never let on
How much I’m hurting
I’ll never let let on
How much I struggle

I’ll be whoever you need me to be
Want me to be

I will face the world
And perform perfection
Because I’ve forgotten how to live
Any other way

I will wear whatever mask you choose
Dress in whatever attire you require
Dance to the beat of your heart
And sing the song of your soul

I’ve long forgotten who I am
All I know is that I’m here to serve

Whatever you need
Whenever you need
I’ll be here

Always

And forever

Youth

Fleeting wisps
Of stolen breaths
Like morning dew

Transient

Morning Dew

It’s early morning
And dawn remains unbroken
You turn out the lights
As the door softly closes

A quick glance
Without regret
A soft mutter into the dark silence

A voice
That sparked joy
Can no longer hold you back
As time puts distance between us
And when the morning shines
It’s too late
For like dew
You are gone

Every trace
Every memory
Hazy and faded
Like an old photograph
Slowly disintegrating

And once more
I find myself
Staring into the abyss
Alone again

Excuses for Resolutions

New Year
New me
Who will I be this year?
What will I do?
Say?

Cutting you down
That’s all I’ve ever known
We all make up lies
Procrastinate about the things we will do
Another time
Another year

Will this year be different?
How could it?

When I look at you
All I see are excuses
Each time you open your mouth
All I hear are lies

Why don’t you
Why can’t you
Admit it when you’re wrong?

Useless
Good for nothing
Piece of shit

Day in
And day out
A relentless assault
Words that shouldn’t hurt
From people who have promised to protect you
From those who call themselves your loved ones
Your confidents
Your best friends
Your parents
A trusted one

Slowly like water
Drip
Drip
Drop

Sinking in
Wearing you away
Until you can’t resist
Until you believe
Until physical pain manifests
And every thought is torture

Over and over
It’s your fault
Always
Nothing is ever right with you

I want to scream at you
What’s the matter?
Why are you so broken all the time?

Attention whore

These words
These “mantras”
Like a song on repeat
A depressing track

“Why?” you ask yourself

Little by little
Your self-worth slips away
Little by little
You recede into yourself
Pull away from your “loved ones”

Chipping away
Cracks appearing in your perfect facade

Somehow, you always knew
What a poor excuse for a human being?
A complete waste of space
Of air
Meaningless
A drop of water in an endless sea
Inconsequential

You tried so hard to push those thoughts away
But deep down
You knew
You aren’t special
It’s the lie you’ve always been told
Special…just another word for someone who couldn’t fit in
Someone who just wasn’t good enough
A label for a fuck up like you

No one will miss you when you’re gone

Will they?

Life

Prompt: haiku! (5-7-5 syllables)

A river flows in
Me.  My life force ebbs and flows
With the changed seasons

 

 

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