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Perpetuity

For once I wish I wasn’t right
The wounds are still fresh
And though I want what’s best for you
My heart isn’t ready for you to fall in love with someone else so soon

You will always hold a part of me
The part that I’ve give you
The part that will always be yours
That piece is your piece alone
No one can take that away
From me
Or from you

I still hear your voice before I fall asleep each night
I still hear you saying to me
“See, I still love you.”

But do you?
Did you?

You couldn’t see the signs I saw
And I always took you to be a better man
Hell, I still believe in that
But to drop me like I meant nothing
To pursue her so soon after
I really was nothing

At the end
In the end
You weren’t there emotionally anymore

I could feel that I didn’t mean as much to you
You didn’t look as me like I was gold
Not anymore
I wasn’t the only girl in the world
I was just yesterday’s garbage

Nobody
And nobody would notice
If I were to slip away
Quietly
Slowly

For a world doesn’t need me
A girl with too many tears
A heart shattered to sand
Blowing away in the wind

Logic and reason keep telling me you’re not right for me
My heart remains unconvinced
So I fight back the tears
But like a dam
They cannot be stopped

But I am also strong
I am also the girl who will prove to the world she doesn’t need anyone but herself
And forever I’ll wear this mask
And tell the lie
That I’m always fine

How often I’ve wanted to scream out
To shout
I’m not fine
I can’t do this
I can’t take it anymore
This is the end

But how do you stop
When all your life you’ve maintained this facade?
Worn a mask
And slipped into a body suit of the perfect girl with a perfect life

One thing is for certain
I will love you no matter what
And if I have to sacrifice my happiness
If I have to watch you love someone else
If I have to suffer through eons of pain
I’ll do that for you
Because even if you can’t or don’t love me back
My feelings will never change
You will always be someone I care for
You will always be special

And nothing in the world will ever change that.

 

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Insecurity

She was all dressed
In silver and gold
The finery of nobility
Her manners were a lady’s
And she carried herself with class

She even had herself
Her very own Prince Charming
He was perfect kindness
Personified

But even Prince Charming was only human
And human are so easily fooled
And he couldn’t resist the lure of the witch’s magic
From the moment they met
She had transfixed him

Though he was not that kind of man
She was that kind of woman
Who didn’t care whose life she ruined

Without his knowledge
He hurt his lady
Abandoned her
Betrayed her love

And she kept thinking
“Was it something I did?”
“Was there something more I could have done to keep him by my side?”

And one day she saw him
Through a glass standing with the witch
Holding her close
It broke her heart

The tears came freely
But what surprised her was that the witch was crying too
She lifted her hand to her face
And the witch followed suit

She turned
And there he was
By her side
As he always had been

All these years
When she thought he had left her
For the witch

It was her
It had always been her

The Novelty of Love

Has the novelty of love worn off of you?

I remember a time
When we’d spend every waking moment
Talking and laughing
Waiting for each others’ replies

I remember a time
When I felt giddy in your presence
When just seeing me made you shiver with excitement

Has the novelty of love passed you by?

I hear no more sweet nothings
I hear no more replies
I wonder if I just died
Would you even know?

You say that you love me
But I feel it’s mechanical
Obligatory
A beautiful lie

My words are still true
My heart still beats for you
Forever and always
I will always choose you

You’ve gone back to your old¬†ways
You say that you’re busy
But you make time when it’s convenient
You say that you’ve forgotten
And I believe it

Maybe I’m crazy
And maybe I overreact
But maybe I’m right
Maybe this is your way of saying
That you don’t love me¬†anymore
Maybe
This is goodbye

Let the Right One in

In a world of liars and cheats
Be careful who you trust
In a world where information is bought and sold
Love is just a price to be paid

I should have known better than to believe you
I should have seen through your thinly veiled lies
It’s funny how honey coated words
Made my heart and head spin for you

Time does not make the heart grow fonder
Nor does it heal all wounds
It simply makes me forget I ever cared
And know that I never will again

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