Prompt: write about a dual quality (strength but weakness) of either in general or for yourself
This is possibly the most difficult question I’m faced with whenever I go into an interview. Like an article I read, sometimes it’s hard to find the balance between completely devaluing yourself and coming off as being boastful. It’s been said that the best strengths are weaknesses and vice versa. The first answer that comes to me is perfectionism. Perfectionism is all encompassing. You can achieve so much as a perfectionist, you have incredibly high standards because, well, you’re essentially saying that you or the product you produce is perfect or near perfect and you wouldn’t submit it if it wasn’t that way. And, of course, the flip is always something like you are too detail-oriented you fail to see the big picture or maybe because everything has to be perfect, it takes you a little longer than others to do the project because you’re checking every little detail.
I get it. I am one. So finding another quality to describe me is hard, but I think I’ve done it.
My weakness and my strength is my creativity.
But wait? How can creativity be a weakness? Let me explain by first telling you how it’s a strength for me. Considering I’m a part of a September Writing Challenge that revolves around prompts that change every day, designed to challenge me by making me write something on the fly, I am utilizing a lot of creative ability here. (which can also be likened to improv, but this is a little less improv-y than improv). The fact that I have a blog dedicated to my poetry and short stories, shows that I have a huge imagination. Creativity is a skill. I’ve trained really hard to get to where I am now. Sure, sometimes it just looks like I don’t put in any effort, but that’s kind of the point. Sure, I say I just let the words flow from my brain to my fingers onto a screen on written out on a piece of paper, but there’s a lot more going on than that. It’s been wired into my brain so that I write as easily as I breathe.
Now consider this. I’ve put my whole life into making writing look easy. I’ve studied this skill for years and I can say that I still don’t have mastery over every aspect of it and I know that I never will. Writing is one of those things you never stop learning. I’ll always make mistakes, grammar and otherwise. But my brain has been conditioned to think this way and if you ask me to think logically about something, I’m not saying I can’t do it, but it’s gonna be a hell of a lot harder. I’ve developed my right brain so much that sometimes what comes out of my mouth is pure stupidity because it isn’t even processed or touched by the left brain. Sure, there was a time when I was heavily left-brained, but having not utilized those skills for such a long time, my brain adapted and discarded the knowledge I no longer needed. I’m not saying it’s impossible, but it’s so much harder. I learned this about myself while studying and taking the LSAT. Logic utilizes the brain in such a way that it’s not used to. For me, it’s not just the time constraints of the LSAT that gets me, it’s being able to make my brain think a certain way. And for someone who had things come so naturally to her (please don’t hate me, but I’m probably the laziest student ever and if things didn’t come naturally to me as a kid, I just pretty much just abandoned them. I’m the kind of kid who didn’t care why something happened; I just respected whatever authority told me. Thankfully, I’m not like that now.), this was really hard. Sometimes I wonder if I lack the maturity to be able to process logic, but in other ways, I think I am much more mature than my age.
So in short what I’m saying is that my brain has, in a way, specialized, but not in the way that what I do becomes inaccessible to others. That’s what I find so cool about creative endeavours. For something like physics or the hard sciences or even English and law, there is a set of defined terminology that you’re expected to know or a series of calculations. These are inaccessible to “regular” people who aren’t privy to that knowledge, to people who haven’t studied in that field. But the creative sphere is great in that people acknowledge that it takes a certain type of skill to produce that piece and that they may not necessarily possess that skill or that level of skill, but can still enjoy it.