What do I see in a man older than me?
I see experience
And maturity that others my age don’t have
I see in him the things that I missed out
In my childhood
Especially the love and tenderness
The chance to escape from solitude
What I truly see in you is what I cannot have
And in seeing that
It makes you all the more…
Could it be that what I see is an opportunity?
A chance to replace my father
With someone more loving than he?
Could I be looking for a legitimate chance and reason to run away?
It could be
I could be
Am I creating a fairy tale dream
Of a family I wish? I could be
Perhaps Freud was right
And that scares me